Thursday, March 15, 2018

Expectations And Disappointments

  • One rule comes to mind when I decided to share this post,expecting leads to disappointment;overlooking guaranteed things for possibilities and maybes. We will always be selfish no matter what,seeing what the mind wants us to,and acting on those views as well. I’m no stranger to living this way,but lately try to keep an open mind to just about everything trying not to miss out on as much as possible.No hang ups,I’m not fixated on too much of anything anymore,whatever happens happens there’s no rules or stipulations to this because seeing the good things involves trust,honesty,opening up and actually stepping outside of ones comfort zone.

Wednesday, March 14, 2018

Moral Actions

Way too many bosses,way too many posers,way too many bullies,way too many sleazes,way too much counterfeiting,way too much under play,way too many pretenders,way too much pretentious bs,get that hate out of your mind and heart,fear of being hurt or duped blocking your ability to show affection or compassion,avoiding vulnerability,egos embracing false senses of security,personality illusionist, communication is also listening as well as sharing your thoughts,feelings and point of view. I just wish there wasn’t so much shit standing in the way of...

Tuesday, March 13, 2018

Solid Sentiment

Still trying to figure out what is it of this world that I really value,you know worldly shit;worthy of me putting on a pedestal I’ve found nothing so far,and the only thing that I’ll probably ever really regret is not being a better father

I See You

Something like misfitted,jagged,rough edged,wild souled,transparent yet complex,abstract like a work of art,I possess the ability to hear your deepest emotions,see the things that make you beautiful, but also your inner beauty as well,I just want you to know that,I see you

Saturday, March 10, 2018

Missing Your Mark

We could never all be the same,equal,physically,mentally nor characteristically so I look for success in my shortcomings;have you ever asked yourself the question;what’s wrong with me???when did this stop being enough,I’m talking no fillers,no gimmicks,sometimes it’s all you’ve got so becoming familiar with who you really are can be helpful,but in a world full of eyes seeking beyond what they can see does this have significance? I’ll part with this place has an abundance of opportunity,but what you consider opportunity plays an important role in how and if you seize them and the quality of life you will have as well. What a shame to miss out on *it* by not recognizing or overlooking what *it* is

Thursday, March 8, 2018

No Disrespect Intended

I’m just curious,thinking out loud; if you give off a certain perception,mentality,attitude,persona,portrayal of ,characteristics of,negative imagery..what do we expect to get in terms to how people will perceive us,act towards us,treat us,it can’t be positively. So it’s kind of outlandish to expect anyone to react in any other way given the circumstance,but we just love to shit and wipe our asses with someone else’s hand don’t we;so many examples came to mind;anyway,probably shouldn’t put things out there that you’re not willing to except the consequences for,but being of selfish nature guess we just can’t help it huh

Tuesday, March 6, 2018

Erotic, Eclectic, Thoughts Of Desire

Love at first sight huh;Seeking impressive;feeling a bit impersonal all around me;why is impersonating so common;how impractical was that;come on,is it really that important;I do believe first impressions are sometimes overrated,but chemistry,now that’s a different story all together. Some of the most extraordinary things are often overlooked,experiences missed seeking practical,I don’t want practical,yes unpredictable,yes unorthodox,yes passionate,yes sensual sapieosexual,yes uninhibited,I desire perfectly imperfect for me

Sunday, March 4, 2018

I Want You To Want Me

Really,no not really, I’m just playing,saying,doing all the things that represent,present and send all the right signs or signals for you to go into full stalker mode,no;just gaze all over my pic,but I’m classy not trashy though,even though status quo is sexy sells,gets your attention,not to mention every other person is trying,no I mean dying to reach the same thing,but you’re different some how right,your methods show sophistication;you’re above that ghetto shit;well at least selectively until it fits,or suits your needs anyway,so; let’s get realistic,because realistically you’re not

Friday, March 2, 2018

Who Are You???

People tend to surprise me at times,even though I’m a realist so seeing things for what they are is kinda my way.You know I don’t know if I’ve heard this somewhere before or what,but you have to live your life like you’re the star of your own movie;how do you see yourself? what your expectations of you are;because you see people will let you down,people and things do change,yes they do change.. ultimately no one is going to be a bigger contribution or fan to your success,your well being than you. A world of one is a lonely place,so this is not a suggestion to shut anyone out,just an understanding that never get caught up in your feelings because of your thoughts of,feelings of,or your expectations nor ill perceived opinions,perceptions,point of view of others. Every person has to find their own way. I’ve always believed that our roads have already been paved,but how we choose to walk them is up to us

Friday, February 23, 2018

My Faith, Unfaithful Why???

Why am I even writing this post;why do we tend to love the ones that don’t love us back? Why do we do and say hurtful things knowing the effect that they have? Why is it so damn hard to be honest,first with ourselves and next in general? Why must we cheat?cheat ourselves,others..Why is it so damn hard to admit shit? Why can’t I just do those things that I am fully aware needs to be done? Why do feelings always have to get in the way of my sound judgement? Why the fk do idiots have to screw things up for the genuinely good people? Why must I subscribe to any labels when I just want to be myself? Why is it so damn hard to love myself? Why do we put off things that we know have to be addressed knowing that ignoring the issue will only make matters worse?why do I feel the need to just because you do? Why is there so much pain and suffering? Why is that all the wrong things are so important? Why is it that majority of positive voices go unheard? Have you ever felt socially inadequate? Is there more money pumped into food advertising,political and government exploit, liquor,drugs,fashion? Why can’t I just accept things status quo? A well maintained me is a happy me,a positive me,a productive me,which then passes on to others in,around and beyond.

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Zoning Out

You know you’re really in your zone when you,forget to tie your shoes,you put your shirt on inside out,mismatch socks or shoes,lock your keys in the house or car,get entirely too far then remember that important thing that you forgot to bring with... call it,I’d love to hear back on this👂🏾

We Fall..

Ever get the feeling that no matter how hard you try shit just doesn’t work out for you??? Damn,Damn,Damn......Down,but get back up!

For My Readers

I love serenity,and solitude doesn’t have to be a bad thing because it gives me time to think,perspective, the ability to see that the world is bigger than me,or me and you,staying true to my character now that’s a different story,but acceptance,now that’s to think about...

Tuesday, February 13, 2018

Reminiscing And Recognition A Valentines Day Inspired Post

Up late night as I’m such an night owl,mostly laying back staring at the ceiling thinking,sometime reading or watching old movies. Yeah so,in my latest late night thoughts I’m thinking damn some shit is very weird,strange even; if I’d have to categorize myself it’d have to be non traditional,I’m not for subscribing to labels nor sticking to status quo but I’m getting off track so,anyhew something on my mind that I thought I’d share to whom ever will listen; I have a deep new found and profound luv for people,good people,but I love you mom we haven’t always been on the same page but I’m a mommas boy what can I say,to shonda thank you for all the hard work that you put into raising our children star who is not only intelligent but also inspirational as well and twan jr who will hopefully start to hear and find his way,and for being a good friend and confidant through out it all,hey pops,we’ve had our differences and difficulties along the way but now in a better place and I’m loving this. My grandma mary we’ve had our differences but there is much love admiration and respect there. Miss Hermine,Francis that’s what I knew,you have a permanent place in my heart as well as my bestie lem our friendship will stand the test of time my man. To my sister Lisa love you rest your soul,always in my thoughts my ace for life,Maine,James my nephews but more like brothers to me,my uncle John for being there,guidance,showing me the way when I needed that. Sir Charles or uncle Rudy don’t ever change we may not always agree but we’ve always connected. The love of my life which is my hearts little one nae,baby girl all I can say is that you’re tattooed on my soul,a piece of my heart belongs to you and in a different world all would be perfect,but unfortunately this one is all we’ve got. You know,unconditional is a special word,special is as special does,I have infinite respect for you ,admiration for you,but you already knew that right..because you put in the effort to deserve that kind of respect with no intro needed because you know who you are even if I don’t or choose not to;but right now I’m just doing a little Reminiscing And Recognition🙏

Sunday, February 11, 2018

The Forbidden Hole Yes Or No

Okay so I’m going to switch it up a bit in this post and briefly touch on Anal Sex the Ins and outs;much like oral sex this seems to be a conflicting topic or issue for many,especially the married couple,not so much a younger generation issue though. Okay,anal sex; while I find it quite interesting,pleasurable,intense,etc. etc.,quite a few have very different experiences and opinions on the subject.Some like it,some find it disgusting,some tolerate it,and some are obsessed with it.Both women and men please share your feelings,views,experiences so that me and other readers as well may be enlightened,I’d love to know what you think on this subject. 

Saturday, February 10, 2018

An Undefined Love

Soft spoken words,the kind of conversations that can go on forever..a bond,a bond that can never be broken,and I know that I should never say never,but that’s just the way that these types of feelings make me feel,never easily broken,like a wild stallion,and past experiences,my trials and tribulations can attest to that,but never dwelling on nor letting any issues,situations take control of me,mold me in its image so to speak, and my affection runs deep,deep enough to understand,pay attention to detail,like the way that you walk,the way that you talk,the simple things and ways that you show affection,compassion,empathy,yes even when you’re silent your mere presence speaks louder than words,I see you,all that you are,all that you are not,your ability to be humble,vulnerable,open;your passion self,your inspirational being,which I say emphatically that I adore being in. What is love,which I ask myself constantly,but four little letters brought together to express something so powerful, but used so loosely,manipulatively,so why would I want to cheapen this,these feelings which explore my very core,tattoo my soul,fuel me to be the best me that I can possibly be. Refined,never confined,always an open mind and yet never feel the need to be defined because you need no description,and I luv that,an undefined love.

Friday, February 9, 2018

The Day Is Like You

I write this because I am sad,sad that you have to go,that things have to change,the way my eyes start to see,the way my heart starts to feel,the way my hands touch,my perspective,my perception,my ability to remain non bias through my emotional insecurities,have we become irrelevant? or is it just that I have,have it all become nonexistent, or is it the fact that you must go away in order to become a new,it seems such a shame to let you,no to see you go with so much promise of more to come,but maybe that’s just it,that within your departure lies the promise of more to come. Surely insignificant quarrels,pettiness,deceitfulness,evilness couldn’t have been your motivation behind your abrupt behavior;no,because you always come back;more beautiful,forgiving,motivational,inspirational,hopeful and promising than the day before,and if I’m blessed to,I look forward to seeing you tomorrow. 

Wednesday, February 7, 2018

My Biggest Fear..

my biggest fear is that I’ll die without meaning,Never get to say all the things that I should have said,Never be fully understood,feel that indescribable feeling,give enough of myself to where it counts within,that there is nothing more to my life than this.. I don’t want to shit on the good things that I have been blessed to see and experience and all the wonderful people that I have come in contact with and lost along the way when I say this either.I’m sure that there are a lot of people that feel this way,whether they admit it or not. This is a round circle post, I’d love to hear from others so please feel free to share your opinions and thoughts. Also don’t forget to hit that follow link as well 

Thursday, February 1, 2018

Uber, Uber Eats Plug

If you’re in need of some extra cash check out Uber;I drive and think it’s pretty cool,also you can if you prefer cash out your earnings that same day and it’s easy to sign up as well.I deliver with @Uber Uber Eats to make money on my own schedule & you can too. Use my link and you could qualify for $170 guaranteed: 

Saturday, January 27, 2018

Say What??????

A strong life lesson;Never expect anything of/from anyone that you’re not capable of giving of yourself.Never expect anyone to just know what you’re thinking,Know how you’re  feeling without communicating so..speaking of communication,my son sends me a text and I never replied so he asks dad did you get my text and I said no,just tell me what it said,then he replied it’s easier for me to talk through text, now I don’t mind a good text conversation sometimes,but I’d much rather have a conversation about most things face to face. I know that you cannot change who someone is,and I’d never want to,but instead of swaying someone my way by forced tactics some gentle guidance never hurts. Nobody likes an emotional bully,nobody likes to be criticized because they don’t see eye to eye with you,and I’d prefer good old fashioned communication instead of sideways undertone bs any day to keep things nontoxic would you agree?

Thoughts And Prayers

 Lord,thank you for waking me up this morning,let today be positive,productive and prosperous,please give me serenity,and bless all those in need. writing to me requires some since of reality,honesty,personal experiences,not necessarily your personal experiences. It’s not easy ,but I’ve learned to push past the pain,the ill will towards me,the things of my past which were not so pleasant.I know that I’m not the best person,a great heart,but down right fkd up at times, but one of the hardest things is knowing who and what you are and actually to except that.When I start to get discouraged my go to is the sympathetic thoughts that there’s always someone who’s in a worst position than me. Thoughts And Prayers; go out to anyone that needs them. I also ask for your thoughts and prayers as I journey through my life issues as well. Thanks for reading and don’t forget to click that follow button and comment as well.

Tuesday, January 23, 2018

Ain’t That Something

Damn I miss you;but I cannot and would not ever want to go back,I ask myself the question how can I see what’s down if I’m always looking up?. Reverse has its purpose,but not in moving forward. Sometimes it does hurt,but I find most of my pain to be self inflicted. A series of happy moments,sad moments,my triumphs,my misadventures have brought me to the place that I am at in my life,the person that I am at this point,but my desire to want more,be better will never let me be content with less than what I think I deserve and can be.

I Know, I Know..

Just saying shit doesn’t necessarily make it true;automatically means that something makes sense,but even if what you say is only heard by you that would mean that someone is listening,and if you’re taking your own advice well that’s even better..I speak so that the people that believe that communication doesn’t help,they don’t have an opinion or their opinions don’t matter or count;well they do,and no matter what self absorbed ass tries to sell you,shrug you,discredit you,belittle you or whatever other insecure tactics they pull. Be yourself,respect yourself,you have to find yourself before anything else. Never get lost in someone else’s existence,coexistence,but never lose sight of who you are or aspire to be.

Monday, January 22, 2018

So You Think You Know It All?

Well I’m sure that you don’t,I’d even go as far to say you’re probably not even close. How many times have you put two and two together and came up with three,rhetorically speaking right now..had everything figured out in your big so called plan for yourself and your life,fyi, life and people will always surprise you,and mostly when you least expect them to.. Your the one with the well rounded gameplay,the well processed future or the well processed scheme to mold one at least huh; I could give a shit less about preaching in this post,giving advice at this time or steering you in any specific direction,but open your damn eyes,you can’t really expect everyone nor everything to bend to your expectations,see the world through your eyes,share your shady point of view no matter how much it makes sense by your logic. Open the door, No!,I mean really open the door;step out,take a hard focused look,and process what you see,and if you’re still viewing things the same way all I can say is that you’re truly in a league all your own,but you still don’t know everything I’d stake my life on it;)

Sunday, January 7, 2018

A Failure To Communicate

Why must we always make everything more complicated than it has to be?a little communication,that’s all it takes;open your mouth up and speaking your mind does wonders in many over complicated situations,things that get blown totally out of proportion when just being forthright or forthcoming. The heart is a very deceiving anatomy,do as you feel or as as your mind tells you,the dilemma huh..well I’m sure being outspoken can cause uneasy feelings,but lying creates a messy aftermath in my opinion,and it may not always be directly nor immediately either. Not to pound the issue I’ll wrap this post up by saying don’t be a dick so to speak,give that individual the respect you would expect and keep it real with them the situation and yourself and just be honest from the gate and communicate for petesake,it doesn’t require much