An Undefined Love

Soft spoken words,the kind of conversations that can go on forever..a bond,a bond that can never be broken,and I know that I should never say never,but that’s just the way that these types of feelings make me feel,never easily broken,like a wild stallion,and past experiences,my trials and tribulations can attest to that,but never dwelling on nor letting any issues,situations take control of me,mold me in its image so to speak, and my affection runs deep,deep enough to understand,pay attention to detail,like the way that you walk,the way that you talk,the simple things and ways that you show affection,compassion,empathy,yes even when you’re silent your mere presence speaks louder than words,I see you,all that you are,all that you are not,your ability to be humble,vulnerable,open;your passion self,your inspirational being,which I say emphatically that I adore being in. What is love,which I ask myself constantly,but four little letters brought together to express something so powerful, but used so loosely,manipulatively,so why would I want to cheapen this,these feelings which explore my very core,tattoo my soul,fuel me to be the best me that I can possibly be. Refined,never confined,always an open mind and yet never feel the need to be defined because you need no description,and I luv that,an undefined love.

 

The Day Is Like You

I write this because I am sad,sad that you have to go,that things have to change,the way my eyes start to see,the way my heart starts to feel,the way my hands touch,my perspective,my perception,my ability to remain non bias through my emotional insecurities,have we become irrelevant? or is it just that I have,have it all become nonexistent, or is it the fact that you must go away in order to become a new,it seems such a shame to let you,no to see you go with so much promise of more to come,but maybe that’s just it,that within your departure lies the promise of more to come. Surely insignificant quarrels,pettiness,deceitfulness,evilness couldn’t have been your motivation behind your abrupt behavior;no,because you always come back;more beautiful,forgiving,motivational,inspirational,hopeful and promising than the day before,and if I’m blessed to,I look forward to seeing you tomorrow. 

My Biggest Fear..

my biggest fear is that I’ll die without meaning,Never get to say all the things that I should have said,Never be fully understood,feel that indescribable feeling,give enough of myself to where it counts within,that there is nothing more to my life than this.. I don’t want to shit on the good things that I have been blessed to see and experience and all the wonderful people that I have come in contact with and lost along the way when I say this either.I’m sure that there are a lot of people that feel this way,whether they admit it or not. This is a round circle post, I’d love to hear from others so please feel free to share your opinions and thoughts. Also don’t forget to hit that follow link as well 

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Say What??????

A strong life lesson;Never expect anything of/from anyone that you’re not capable of giving of yourself.Never expect anyone to just know what you’re thinking,Know how you’re  feeling without communicating so..speaking of communication,my son sends me a text and I never replied so he asks dad did you get my text and I said no,just tell me what it said,then he replied it’s easier for me to talk through text, now I don’t mind a good text conversation sometimes,but I’d much rather have a conversation about most things face to face. I know that you cannot change who someone is,and I’d never want to,but instead of swaying someone my way by forced tactics some gentle guidance never hurts. Nobody likes an emotional bully,nobody likes to be criticized because they don’t see eye to eye with you,and I’d prefer good old fashioned communication instead of sideways undertone bs any day to keep things nontoxic would you agree?

Thoughts And Prayers

 Lord,thank you for waking me up this morning,let today be positive,productive and prosperous,please give me serenity,and bless all those in need. writing to me requires some since of reality,honesty,personal experiences,not necessarily your personal experiences. It’s not easy ,but I’ve learned to push past the pain,the ill will towards me,the things of my past which were not so pleasant.I know that I’m not the best person,a great heart,but down right fkd up at times, but one of the hardest things is knowing who and what you are and actually to except that.When I start to get discouraged my go to is the sympathetic thoughts that there’s always someone who’s in a worst position than me. Thoughts And Prayers; go out to anyone that needs them. I also ask for your thoughts and prayers as I journey through my life issues as well. Thanks for reading and don’t forget to click that follow button and comment as well.

Ain’t That Something

Damn I miss you;but I cannot and would not ever want to go back,I ask myself the question how can I see what’s down if I’m always looking up?. Reverse has its purpose,but not in moving forward. Sometimes it does hurt,but I find most of my pain to be self inflicted. A series of happy moments,sad moments,my triumphs,my misadventures have brought me to the place that I am at in my life,the person that I am at this point,but my desire to want more,be better will never let me be content with less than what I think I deserve and can be.